I have been in a default state of panic since the beginning of my Student Internship !😱
9 weeks ago , I embarked on the final 18 months of my medical school career ! I am on the surgical half of my rotation schedule. I started with my small surgical blocks ; ENT, Urology , Anesthetics and Ophthalmology. Each block is three weeks long.
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On Monday I am writing my last exam and doing my last OSCE for my Middle Clinical Rotations ! This is very clearly a blog post borne out of unabashed procrastination. #sorrynotsorry
Finishing my middle clinical rotations is a big deal though ! It means that have successfully completed another year and a half of my degree !
The next step is : Student Internship !
I have to complete my elective first, one month in adult neurosurgery, but immediately following that I begin my journey towards the ends ! #SI
At my university , the last 18 months of the medical degree are spent as a student intern (SI). We are expected to function at the level of interns. After that we graduate and become contributing members of society ! #yay
We rotate through all the medical disciplines in hospital and don’t have any theory classes (ever again!). Of course we’ll still get formal tutorials , have tests and OSCES after every rotation but our teaching is purely clinically based.
The prospect of being an SI is definitely nerve-wracking ! Student internship officially signals the beginning of the end of my journey towards my MB,ChB degree! I’ve had a tumultuous experience this past year and I am hoping that the changes I made were for the better and have far more desirable outcomes 😀
My last theory class was some time ago during the Ethics module. There is a tradition at my university that is upheld where fifth year students dress up as special characters on the last day class. In ode to Harry Potter , I dressed up as Lord Voldemort’s most loyal lieutenant, Bellatrix Lestrange ! It was a fantastic day and I thoroughly enjoyed myself !
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Lily Update!
(Because my commitment to regular blogging has been shockingly abhorrent) !
The last six months of my life have been challenging. So many overlapping and intersecting struggles seemed to present themselves (at the same time #ironically) and I had to take some time to do genuine introspection and critical self-reflection.
I am glad that I did because the alternative would have been a slow and steady descent into depression and worsening of my anxiety.
I am proud of the seemingly harsh but prudent steps that I took in order to take charge of my mental health.
I decided that my mental health mattered more to me. In order to carry on with my life and ensure future success, I had to bear responsibility for my mental well-being. My zeal and enthusiastic promotion of self-love and self-care have now expanded to include self-analysis and self-truth. Honestly , it has been a lot of “self” to deal with.
Being an adult is hard … sigh.
I am also 22 years old now ! My future still looks bright and hopefully it stays that way #LilyAllen
I have two beautiful tuxedo cats named Jasmine Fleur & Babette Lafayette . Yes, their names are French. They are very interesting creatures. I think they like me but honestly it is so difficult to tell sometimes.
Anyway … My fifth year dance happened some time ago as well 🙂 ! Below are some pictures of myself along with mybest friends. I’m the one in blue #haha ! I had the best night and I would love to do it all over again . Being adequately inebriated was a wonderful part of the experience 🙂 ❤
I hope to blog again and soon ! I cannot, however, promise because life usually just “happens” … sigh.
I am here to accept the award for “Most Neglectful Blog Owner in 2017 & Part of 2018” .
It’s a title that I have shamefully earned. After promising to post during my holiday and then proceeding to not post during the holiday , I truly deserve that dishonor. Blogging only a handful of times in 2017 is not my proudest moment. And this being my first blogging effort in 2018 is entirely deplorable.
Honestly, life did not unfold effortlessly for a while. I hit a gargantuan speed bump (metaphorical) during my holiday.
My will to blog , let alone do anything, was obliterated during that time. I had been disappointed and hurt by someone close to me and getting over that initial shock was hard. I spent some time feeling very sad and angry , and rightly so after all that I had endured.
Part of me was reluctant to feel sad because it felt as though I was back-tracking on my mental health. After some time , in acquiescence, I opted to put an ending to my stoic tendencies and acknowledge what I was feeling at that time. It was the healthiest thing I could have done for my mental health. That was my turning point after that heart-wounding.
I managed to overcome that funk and enjoyed the rest of my holiday. I spent time with my friends and family. It was beautiful and peaceful. I was at peace with my self and felt perfectly content. Suffice to say , blogging was really the last thing on my mind ;). I spent my days eating good food , reading good books and indulging in the company of my family. And swimming daily 🙂
Content 🙂
Happy Lily
Reflections
Post swim haze
Reflection time !
2017 was a year of mixed emotions . I had dizzying and ludicrous highs and really low, below the ground , lows. I learnt a lot during 2017. Discarded some naivety for some life experience. I matured significantly and I hope to utilize this personal growth to go onto better things .
2018 thus far …
Then the academic year began… It was a mad rush and in a very short space of time , I was incredibly busy.
2018 had me feeling a little bit lost at first. I felt as though I was a first year who was trying to find her feet again.
I have been inundated. Mostly with school related work but also very personal matters.I have done the needful and set all my ambitious goals and I have been quietly and slowly working on them. #self care
I am not going to make any blogging promises, because I clearly can’t keep them , but I still view this blog as a happy and calming space and I will utilize it as often as I can throughout this year.
I’m in a much better mental space at the moment and even though I’m bull-dozing my way through assignments and currently on rotation , I feel healthier and I am much happier ! 😀 :
Thank you for reading my rambling thoughts and following my blog 🙂
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I am here to accept the award for “Most Neglectful Blog Owner in 2017 & Part of 2018
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those little things on ur nose aren’t blackheads, don’t try and get rid of them they’re sebaceous filaments and they’re permanent and literally everyone has them
every girl has that little pouch of fat on her lower tummy, despite what magazines try n show u, you have important organs there that need to be protected don’t try and get rid of ur pouch
ur body is smarter than u think and it knows what to do when u eat more than normal. one bad day, or even week, of eating poorly isn’t gonna ruin anything at all I pinky promise
if u think u look good up until u try taking a selfie, it’s not ur fault - our faces are asymmetrical and when u see ur face flipped it will look unnatural to u, since u don’t see it that way when u look in the mirror. to everyone else it looks perfectly fine
no one’s stomach looks the same at 8pm as it does at 8am. no one has a chiseled six pack after a day of eating, not even the super fit people u see on tumblr, because ur stomach naturally expands after eating and expecting to have a flat tummy before bed is very unrealistic
no one notices if the bags under ur eyes are bad today. no one pays attention to the bump in ur nose or the zit on ur chin or the piece of hair that u missed when u were straightening. literally no one notices these things except you so stop worrying about it ur gonna be fine
Am I wet? Am I on my period? Did I pee my pants?- next on wtf is going on down there.
I’m so glad this is a universal wondering among vagina-owners, haha.
‘Vagina-owners’
Tune in next time for: Are these menstrual cramps? Am I pregnant? Is it just gas? I wouldn’t have to ask these questions if I didn’t have a damn uterus
Next week: Is it a bladder infection? An ovarian cyst? Do I have endometriosis? Oh God please do not let it be cervical cancer! A 20/20 special
Y'all are forgetting the all-time classic: Is it just my period or is my appendix about to burst? Some nice tea and a heatpack or 911 and emergency surgery?
There is actually a test for that last one!
Place your hand over the pain, press down slightly and release. If the pain doesn’t change by any great margin, you’re fine. If it suddenly becomes some painful you can barely stand, Get thee to an Emergency Room
Reblogging for the useful info as well as the lack of any transphobic comments! =P
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I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve fucking thought of it.
minority culture is being labelled too political because you dont want to be friends with people who literally dont think you should have the same rights as them
